Trying to find jobs and places to live.  Fayettesville, Arkansas, and Philly and Pittsburgh.  If people got housing and or a job... I'm interested......



Fucking race team dicked me around all week, but I finally got paid.... I'm sticking it out at least thru Kentucky next week, cause I will hopefully be pitting the ARCA car as well as a Camping World series truck.....


Not around at all this weekend, Chryslers @ Carlisle show.. Dyno'd 18 cars yesterday, hoping for a good day today..


Oh yeah, I've been working on Phoenix..... ALOT  new rims come today, still debating what I'm doing tire wise, as well as ALOT of other little work on her.... Photos Monday, hopefully.....  Shes one really sexy bitch now.

So the more I think about things, and the more I try to put a plan together of where to live and what to do with my life, the more I really feel like a worthless failure with no real skills or abilities.


I think I'm gonna go curl up in my dark bedroom and hope I feel better when I wake up. -_-

Headed to Daytona tonight for the NASCAR Nationwide race on Friday.  #75 Lucas Oil Chevrolet Impala SS

its on ESPN Friday night.


This may be the "Fennec Farewell Tour" race.  I'm not sure if I am going to keep going with this team or not after this race.  Its not fun anymore nor is it worth all the hastles for a measly $300 every race.  I dont get paid at all for working on the cars, just for pitting them.  yea.

I really wish another team would pick me up.  It would solve so many problems in my life right now >.<


Oh yeah, now they want to goto Kentucky to test Monday... I'm only going if I get paid.......

EDIT:  I made business cards

So, I finally get offered a job.

However Its 45 miles away, and doesnt pay me enough to break even.

Fuck.

Since enough people have mentioned this and I dont feel like answering IMs about it.

Heres the deal, last night, as its getting dark, myself, silentwolf59 and steve_fox_uk are suiting.  Doings random silliness in the front lawn, on the porch, and then we go down into my parkinglot and we are messing around down there and we start waving at cars and stuff.  Evidently someone who drove past called the police.  What the police were told, I don't know.  That was never made clear.  But so, we head inside when we wanted a break in suiting, and right as I take my fursuit head off, Steph yells in that the police are here.  Honestly, police don;t bother me, because I'm smart enough to know as long as your polite and respectful and havent kileld someone or something along those lines, usually you can get off with a warning.  So, I walk back outside in fursuit sans head to see what the story is.

The office walks up, wants to know whats going on, and who owns the residence.  Asks the usual questions , name, address, phone, about the property, blah blah blah.He goes off a bit about being pissed that he got called out to check on such bullshit as he has alot better things to do and if he has to come back he will start arresting people for disorderly conduct.  But he tells us to just keep drinking, heh.  Also, at one point protocollie and searedice come over from across the street, and set off a camera flash.  I've never seen a cop reach for a gun so quick.  Im pretty sure had I not been like "they're art and photography students, dont mind them" he might of pulled it.  He asked one or two more police questions, then it got interesting.  He kinda looked me over, standing there in 3/4th of a fursuit and goes, so... uh...... whats this all about.  Without missing a beat I go, "oh we are professional mascots for hire.  Myself and tehre is 2 other guys inside." huh..... really?  where at?  "oh like hershey park, parades, carnivels, stores, etc.  Whatever really."  So.. uh... do you get alot of work? "you'd be suprised."  He tells us to just knock it off and dont be on the road, and then takes off.  We offered for him to come back and have a beer and he said we should drink all we want, he has to go home and sleep.

Honestly, Im good at thinking on my feet and am good with talking to people of authority appropriately, so i at least nothing bad happened.


Just another amusing story I guess?

Or something.

It's kinda nice to be home right now.  Ten straight days of being around the same 6 people 24 hours a day, while fun, gets tedious.  If I worked with better people, Id enjoy it more.

-Michigan wasn't bad.  Got an amazing meal for free, stayed at a Casino, finally can say I played at a Casino, and aside from the rain ruining practice and losing the little practice we got due to fixing the car, we ran well.  Finished 14th.  If we could get some practice time in, we'd be alot better.  Our biggest issue at MIS was having the wrong gear in the car.  We are running alot better than it shows.  Now if I could just find a pit crew thats on the same level as me, we'd be good.  I'm tired of the two "hollywood" guys we have right now.  The front carrier thinks hes great but cant put hte wheels on  ( i smoke his ass every time)  and the jack man keeps not getting the car high enough. Feh.  I was baller all weekend.

-Got some sweet new Ogio luggage, so I dont have to dufflebag it everywhere anymore.  <3 for being on the plan and having connections.  (Ogio, Bell, Dickies, Impact!, Hutch BSR)

-Got a new phone.  Picked up a 16gig iPhone 3G, cause as much as I liked my Blackjack, WinMo was getting old.  And honestly, the iPhone will be a great fit.  I love it already, and with the app's I've already got, I can do so much more on the road I feel.

-Bought my father a camera.  A Nikon Coolpix L100.  It looks and feels like his high end Nikon Film camera's, so hopefully he will like it.  His birfday is tomm.  so we will see.

-I finally went to Ikea yesterday with Littlewolf and Jenni.  I will no longer mock this store.  I also saw everything from the John Coulton Song.  haha.  However, unlike what the Simpsons said, there was no room of lamps that did not look like lamps.  Sad fennec.  Scored a new CD tower, a Skubb, some rocking new real dishes for the house, orange cups (OMG!)  I will hafve to go back, perhaps with the ultimate IKEA conisoor, Whitefeet, at some point.

Otherwise, just planning to work on the house today.  Weedeat, Mow, trim bushes, etc.  Make the place look nice, rather than trashy.

Maybe a possible hangout out here this coming weekend?  Dunno yet.  Also, Zero, we need to figure out when to do the big guy breakfast morning.  hahahaha.

So I bought an iphone.



Tips?

tricks?

Apps?

So we picked up some sponsors for this weekend.

I'm staying on the 27th floor of the Greektown Casino and Hotel in Detroit right now, because Greektown Casino and Fishbone Restaurant teamed up to sponsor us this weekend.  comp, ftw.

Hoping to hit up the casino later tonight, last night we had a free meal at Fishbone, holy hell, the 6 of us had a $500 meal.  It was damn good.  hahahaha.


So at least somethings going right.

And hopefully teh rains hold off tomm. so we can practice and race.

5pm EST on speed, if you wanna watch.

I like this.. back to back events.  I'm tired and sore, but damn it feels good to be heading back out on the road.  Leaving shortly for Toledo, Ohio tonight, and then on to Brooklyn Michigan for the ARCA Racing For Wildlife 200 Friday afternoon at MIS.

Same car we had at Pocono, and only the people who actually do work are going.  I'm hoping for a solid run, just want another chance to show off the goods, since the Truck and Cup Series will be there as well.......

Not much else to say, haven't been home to get much accomplished, but I like it that way.

Possible goings on out here next weekend (the 20th)  more on that later tho.  I need to finish packing all my gear.

So, have photo.




Yea.  Im awesome.

So, last week, Teddy resigned as crew chief of the race team, cause he had enough of their shit. Today the one brother that owns it pissed my Dad off to the point that he told them that after 8 years, fuck it, its not fun anymore, and he quit. They dont trust the new crew chief they brought up. And we are going to pocono with Larry, Little ray ( moreuseless than a tanning bed in the north pole), myself, and Logan, the 16 yr old kid that helps out. Plus a few "track only" mofo's that will most likely just be useless like last race.

Its 11pm and I just got a text from Logan saying the cars still not done. We have to load the rig and leave by 1pm tomm.

*sigh* and I get the feeling they will try to jew me out of my pay.

The race is at 1pm Saturday EST. On Speed channel, blah, blah blah. I think littlewolfls and jmlukens are going. I'll try to drop them tickets off tomm night.

I'm just really frustrated. All I have done my whole life is work tow ards this goal in life of racing full time. It's sadly about the only thing I'm good at and have confidence in. But now, its not even fun anymore. I'm not trusted and all my work is second guessed because my boss is paranoid. I'm almost ready to walk away from it, except:

I don't know what else to do with my life.

I lack confidence in alot of my other abilities due to my inability to hold down a job for very long. :-\

I need to try to figure it out soon, because I'm starting to drink way to much to deal with all this shit.

this song seems fitting. Im gonna go have another Seagram's and Sun Drop and try to not want to bash my head in.

Oh yea, Sunday I'll be in Carlisle all day for the Ford Nationals Show.

Yea. Was in Cumberland, Maryland for Global Diesel Days all weekend.  17 hours of Dyno time, 36 trucks, at least 3 runs a truck... yea.

I REAK of diesel fumes.

but its cool.

The AMS guys are awesome.  I like doing the shows cause we have alot of fun.


Things with BGR are really fucked up.  I have no idea whats going on with Pocono right now, people quit last week and shit kinda boiled over  *shrugs*  I'm just staying till I can at least fund my coilovers or something better comes up.

Anyway.  Shower time.

But you know what, I don't really care.


I'm looking for jobs in Charlotte, NC and in Fayettesville, AR.

I'm sick of Pennsylvania.

I'm tired of everyone in this state having some kind of smartass attitude.

I'm tired of always being questioned whenever i ask someone i work with to do something

I'm tired of the rampant stupidity of people.

I'm tired of everyone being an asshole that I work with up here.

I'm sick of people not giving you a chance because you did something different with your life.

I spent 4 days in Charlotte.  people smiled, said hello, opened doors, and are generally nice.  When was hte last fucking time someone did that up here?

I'm also really pondering my involvement in furry anymore.  Aside from a small handful of people here, and another handful of people around the US I have met at cons, I'm really not into it lately.  It gets old watching people be creepy, gross, and stupid all the time.  The lack of responsability really just makes me fucking sick anymore.



Comments are open, go for it, you wont offend me.

Gone to Charlotte, need to chill and relax for this fucked up week.


Back Monday night.


Carolina Furs, hit me up!  Lets Chill!

Headed out to paint a car, but I'm bored, so yea.

1) Who are you?
2) Would you consider me a good acquaintance? Would you like to know me better?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you buy me a drink? What kind?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in three words or less
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me? What do I remind you of?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Would you like to know all this if I were to fill out this questionnaire about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

So, the weekend was meh. Teddy bought a grill Friday and I mowed grass to get the police off my ass. Saturday was car show full of fail excuses by people. 5 cars in 10 hours x.x/ Met up with ethanhusky and hung out with him and his gang of Subaru's Saturday night in Carlisle and had a great time.  Much fun was had, and many Saab's and Audi's were insulted.  Automated Phone Sex, Dick In a Box, and IM ON A BOAT! were also had.  hahaha.



Anyway.  I'm kicking the idea around to come back to the CLT I miss so much this weekend.  Possibly Thursday - Monday in Charrrrrrlootttee

So, Yea, Def a trip to Ash-vegas needs to occur to see people, maybe some shenannigans in CLT?  Maybe the fursuit will come, dunno.  Waiting for Alex to wake up to talk more to him about it.



It will also let me stock up on sundrop and take care of NLINE business