So yea, rolled back into the ever bustling town of Lebanon last night. Wow. Ive been gone two months and the entire town still looks exactly as it does. Heh. Had dinner with my family and caught up on things, then went out to the Blue Bird to meet up with Kyle and the race team for a drink or two. Also ran into my buddy Chauncy who is home for the weekend, he works for another ARCA team down in Charlotte.

It's nice seeing my family, but at the same time I can already remember why I left this town.... twice. Its just so boring here.

Today should be nice, my grandfather and uncle are coming over for fooods. Tonight, I dunno. And then tomorrow night I'll be hanging with some of my favorite people. I think im being taken to the gay bar. haha. GReat. Now that Electric Six song is stuck in my head. >,<

Checked my grades today. Did kinda bad on my last math test. I will be curious to get it back next week and see what I messed up on. MEh. Not gonna let it bother me tho.

You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

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Yea... I blame it on monday.

1. Sitting in Physics, taking notes on Newtons Laws of Motion, when the teacher starts talking about doing an experiment in class to demonstrate. Not really focusing at this point, then suddenly she starts spinning a tennis ball around on a string. I instantly sat up and was like ! ball! ball! BALL! Thankfully I kept from saying anything out loud, but I amused myself. I hate it when I get furry like that sometimes. hahah.

2. I had to goto the library to get a book today. First time, aside for filming with Eric, that I have been in a Library for like... 5 years? Anyway, the book I needed was in downtown. Up at The Carnegie Main Library. For the not Pittsburgh people, thats like, where Pitt's campus, Carnegie Mellon, and I think like one other schools campus's all converge it seems. And I go there at like 3pm. All these preppy, well to do, trust fund kids seemed to be going in. Button down shirts, blazers, khaki's, abercrombie, you know. the "my outfit cost more than your house" people. It was preppy kid city.And I totally walk into this fancy library in camo pants, steel toed boots and a beat up racing t shirt, sporting the red fauxhawk.

I'm just a classy disaster sometimes. hahaha.

Five years ago today I lost one of the best friends I ever had.

I wear your dogtag 'round my neck at ever race I work, because I know your there. Watching, and watching over me.

We became friends because everyone else we knew wanted us to shut up about racing to them. But you were so much more.

You were and still are the brightest, smartest, and most outgoing person I have ever met. I wish I could just be a 10% as good natured as you were in life buddy.

I miss you alot. I think about you alot, and its a good feeling to know your up there somewhere, watching and keeping me safe whenever I go racing.

But damnit. I miss you. Somedays I just wish I could cry and let it out, but I cant. So many things remind me of you. I just try to remember there is no more pain anymore, and your free now.



You are why i will always wear the Livestrong and Life is a team sport bracelets.  It reminds me of you and to be a better person, and it makes me keep hoping that someday we will cure these things.

Man. It is really hard for me to just sit down and write lately on here. 

-I am kicking ass and taking names at school right now.  My lowest grade is a 93.3%  heh.  If you would have told me 6 months ago that I'd go back to college and do well at it, I'd of laughed at you.  But I like the people I sit around, we all work hard and help each other.  The other plus is after a refresher to blow the dust off, alot of say, the math and physics stuff, is coming back to me, and I find alot of my other classes very interesting, and I like the challenge of learning new things.

-Hockey season starts on Sunday.  Can't wait.  Gonna be either 05 or 65.  Bought some sweet new hockey pants yesterday as well as shin guards.  All the rest of my gear still works, so woo.  I'm excited.  Its been 4 years since I have played, and I honestly do miss it alot.  Hopefully this will provide me with a positive outlet to work out, stay in shape, and de-stress.  If it all goes well, I may look into buying a pair of skates in the spring and go play roller hockey again.

-My parents are coming out to visit on the 14th.  School has an open house, and they wanna see where I'm going to school, so why not.  I can show them all the planes and hangers and labs, etc.  I'm sure they will like it.  I plan to take them to Primanti Bros. as well while they are out here, and Diesel, I need to know how to get to that awesome scenic overview you showed me when I moved here.  I gotta show them that.  I am looking for some ideas for other places to take them, as I only really go out so far to shop or bars, heh.  So cool, interesting places I could take them?  It will be nice having them visit for a weekend.

Can't really think of too much else.  Tossing ideas around for a secondd fur character.  An alt if you will, or well, I dont know.  I know species, but still working out colors, patterns and/or if its gonna be an extension of certain things in my life or not.  Vague statement is vague.

Anyway, I'm off.  Stuff to do and breakfast, then class.  woot.

So time for an entry of meaning, perhaps? I keep wanting to sit down and write, but nothing comes out. Heh.

School is going well. Surprisingly well. I'm kinda asking myself a lot "Why the hell didn't I go back and do this sooner?" I like all of my classes so far. Mind you, most of what we are doing so far is review, especially for me, and I am most certain it will get harder as the year progresses, but I'm really enjoying this. I wake up wanting to go to class. I have made some awesome friends at school already, and I really don't mind the work. I just finished my first English paper in about four years, hahaha. We had to write a Process / How To paper, so I figured, go with what you know, and Did "How To Change the Gears In A Winters Quick Change Rear End". Got it back from rough editing and it was surprisingly clean. Re-edited it this morning and yea. Its good. Maths pretty easy so far, Physics is Phun, (ha ha , get it? Phun? hahahaha), Aviation History has been surprisingly interesting, and my Ohm's Law / Electronics class is pretty cool as well.

Been hanging out with the local furs when I can, and made some friends at school.  One of the guys at school is trying to get me to join his hockey team.  I'm thinking about it, heh.

Looking into my unemployment stuff. I'm on Tier1 EUC currently. That runs out Thanksgiving week, but I do believe that I will then go on Tier2 EUC for 13 weeks.... Still looking for a part time job in PGH tho....... I can make so much a week before my unemployment gets hurt, and I wouldn't mind doing that. I'd like to get back to having that safety net of one months spare money again.

Also.... looks like there may be an addition to my vehicle fleet.... I'm very excited about what it looks like I am getting, just going through right now and making sure everything is taken care of and what costs will be involved to transfer it over. :D I have some of the best and coolest friends ever. ...

Guess thats it for now.  Nothing else is jumping at me.  Gotta goto the North side of town this weekend to look at a car trailer for my father and an English Wheel for the race team.....

So, here's the deal.

School > Everything Else.

Understand? If I miss too more than about 1 day of class a semester I get hit with penalties. If I miss more than 2400 minutes before I graduate, I flunk out of the school and have to start over, per FAA guidelines.

Furfright 2009 and 2010: Not Attending
MFF 2009 and 2010: Not Attending
FWA 2010: Not Attending
NYFB 2010: Most likely Not attending

Anthrocon 2010: Most likely attending since its across town, and it falls during my 2 week break.
WPAFW 2010: Attending

I have 2 days off at Thanksgiving. Thursday and Friday.  As of right now, I do not know yet if I will be back east for thanksgiving or not.  Depends on if i have a job, and / or school work, etc.

I have 3 days off at Christmas.  Wednesday - Friday.  I will be back East Wednesday - Sunday at Christmas.


I'm sorry that I can't go to cons to see people, or travel at all.  But I am spending way to much money, and there is way to much going for me at this school to fuck it up.  If your going to be offended, too bad.

This song, for whatever reason really gets to me lately.



And I know that we've still got time
But I do not think we're invincible
And I'm thinking that its a sign
'Cos I do not think we're invincible

Crushing all in it's path (x4)

Now don't get me wrong I love what you done with the place
I just wish you had a chance to help build it
Instead of just moving into this home of disrepair
And expect it to work, prosper and then share
Constantly relying on consuming to feel content
But only because we lost touch with this home that we've spent
Trillions of dollars tainting for our wants and not our needs
And now we're growing tired of planting bleary-eyed seeds

And I'm not saying that we could do better
But given the chance we'd try (we'd try)
We dig up the earth's time worn soil
And fill the trench with greedy eyes

Imagine,

SWITCH!

And I know that we've still got time
But I do not think we're invincible
And I'm thinking that its a sign
Deep breaths, clentched fists,
Here comes another jug-ger-naut!

Crushing all in it's path (x4)

What the hell, will happen now! ?
I really don't know man!

We'll do what we've always done
Shut our eyes and hope for the best
NO! We're gonna face this
And step out onto the tracks
Stare it right in the face
THOU SHALL NOT PASS!

And I know that we've still got time
But I do not think we're invincible
And I'm thinking that its a sign
'Cos I do not think we're invinvible

Crushing all in it's path (x4)

And I know that we've still got time
But I do not think we're invincible
And I'm thinking that its a sign
Deep breaths, clentched fists,
Here comes another jug-ger-naut!

And I know that we've still got time
But I do not think we're invincible
The idea of community
Will be something displayed in a museum

You taste like tear-stains and coulda' been's.


But I love a good trainwreck.



People confuse me. I want a project to work on on weekends, or maybe i just need another job. I dont like sitting with nothing to do.

Otherwise, I guess everythings okay?

First day of College today..... *nervous flail*

Seriously.  I was really nervous going into WPAFW, since I had no idea what to expect, and i didn't know ANYONE.  But wow.  Like, best con/ pseudo-con evar!  I could not tell you the last time I went to a furry outing that was: 1)Drama free 2) Had everyone being civil, polite, respectful and behaved, and 3) Just that much fun. 

I met soo many interesting people and hopefully made a ton of new friends this weekend!  I was also glad that I could help out and volunteer my services as needed at the event.  Swift and crew, you guys do a great job!

I didn't suit as much as I wanted Saturday, cause of the weather, but hopefully I shall find a few photos of myself on the internets.

Oh ya!  MehndiX sketched me the most awesome badge ever.


"More Ear Space Please"

I think Swift might of had something to do with that line getting added... darn foxes! :P


Now, onward to gear up for the first day of classes Wednesday!

God bless you bipolar swings.... just when i think i have it all together, you come along and make me second guess everything.

Nervous and worrying about alot of things right now... Minds kinda going way overboard.  Dunno about WPAFW yet... depends how I feel and if any checks come tomorrow.

Fuck I hate being broken sometimes. 

This is why I always worry when I'm happy cause it always seems like its just a swing, not true happiness.

So, since BMR isn't racing at Motordrome this weekend,

WPAFW go! yay! at least I make 1 con this year.  haha.  Prolly won't be fullsuiting, just partialling.  But I will be there all weekend!

So any of you from the eastern side of the state going?


Guess this means I bust out the DL United jersey and the popufur shirt, eh?

So yeah.  Its only been like a week, but you know what?  I got a good feeling about Pittsburgh.  I've made some really cool friends already, and I just have a really positive feeling that maybe, just maybe, for once "everything's just gonna be alright"

Yea!  Here's some photos of my house.... Still stuff to hang, curtains to get, etc etc.

www.facebook.com/album.php

So yeah.  Big props to codexrau  and diesel_rottie  for helping me find places to live, check them out and get moved in.  I'm officially a rare and elusive Western PA Fennisune now.  hahaha.

I will get some photos up once I have the place a little more together.

But yea, 2 weeks to learn the city, then school starts.....

Photos from the trip out:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=111167&id=500280052&l=466cbdecb1

Got the house.  I move to Pittsburgh Monday.

This sums it up:

So, looks like Furfright will be a no go.  Between waiting on my student loans and moving and paying stuff off I dont see myself having $300 expendable dollars.  I also get out of class at 3pm in Pittsburgh, and have to be back at class at 8 am monday.  day to a day and a half of con, i dunno.... so i guess maybe no cons for me this year......


In other news, submitted an application for this AWESOME place in Pittsburgh.  Assuming they dont see about those 3 hookers I stabbed in Ohio, I should be good.

(i keed, i keed)

But srsly.  I hope I get it.  I need a place so I can move in like 10 days.

So, I think I might have found a starter apartment in West Mifflin, PA.  And its just that.  I place for the winter while making friends and seeing whats out there.

Hoping to move by the 24th, honestly.


Hey Pittsburgh people.  Anyone got storage space or workshop / garage space for a fennec?  I got a stack of tires that need to come out and 2 toolboxes.  And putting them in a second floor apt.  not my idea of fun, ya know?



STUFF FOR SALE

-205/75/r15 tires, set of 2 Goodyears, less than 500 miles on them $100
-1997 General Motors Full Size Truck Manuals $50
-Autographed Jason leffler Fedex Fender $75
-Magnavox DVD Player $25
-Guitar Hero + Guitar for PS2 $25
-Harman Kardon Speakres for PC $25
-Speakres from an Aiwa shelf system $25
-Cambridge Soundworks 2.1 PC system $30
-Bluetooth sync'd wireless Logitech Keyboard and Mouse $30 sold to Brian
-Assorted traffic cones (make reasonable offer)
-Toyota Racing Development Cover $60
-Roadmaster bass Tube $10
-Motorola RAZR Cell Phone $50
-Samsung Blackjack 1 with extendlife batery (double sized) car charger and wall charger $100
-Computer Hutch $50 sold to Teddy

PC Stuff (sold as is)
Windows 98 sold to Kael
Microsoft Virtual PC (new in box)
Streets and Trips 2005 sold to goggremlin
Money 2005
Money 2006 Premium
PC 100 Memory ( 128mg?)
Geforce 5200 Card AGP
Geforce 6600GT card AGP